Losers

Losing by Tenth Avenue NorthI can't believe what she said...
I can't believe what he did
Don't they know it's wrong?
Don't they know it's wrong?
Maybe there's something I missed?
But how could they treat me like this?
It's wearing out my heart
The way they disregard

This is love
This is hate
We all have a choice to make

Oh, Father won't You forgive them
They don't know what they've been doing
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losing

It's only the dead that can live
But still I wrestle with this
To lose the pain that's mine
Seventy times seven times
Lord it doesn't feel right
For me to turn a blind eye
But I guess it's not that much
When I think of what You've done.

This is love
This is hate...
We gotta a choice to make

Oh Father won't You forgive them
They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losing

Why do we think that our hate's going change their heart
We're up in arms over wars that don't need to be fought
But pride won't let us lay our weapons on the ground
We build our bridges up but but just to burn them down
We think our pain is own apologies and then it'll stop
But truth be told it doesn't matter if they're sorry or not
Freedom comes when we surrender to the sound...
Of mercy and Your grace
Father, send Your angels down

Oh Father wont you forgive them
They don't know what they've been doing
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losing
I feel like I've been losing

Oh Father give me grace to forgive them...
Cause I feel like the one losing

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I've just started hearing this on the radio and it speaks to me on a variety of levels. I've always been forgiving, to a fault almost. My brother would say I'm just passive and weak. And sometimes I think he's right. It almost makes you feel walked on and abused to forgive people when they've hurt you; like you're the loser and they are winning some battle.

I'll be the first to admit I have a temper; I could just say I'm passionate, but then the moment passes and it's gone. I don't tend to hold grudges. I spend more time laying awake at night beating myself up over being so quick to let things go, especially when certain people feign aplogizes, then I do recounting the sins against me. There's a quote that says " holding a grudge is letting somone live rent free in your head." I'm glad that the only person puttering in that space between my ears is me. Even when we feel like the losers we win. By forgiving whether they deserve it or not, we win a lighter heart, we win a life full of happiness, we win the ability to see the good beyond the next corner. When we learn to forgive it makes it easier for us to live a life loving others and putting their needs before our own.

Tonight take a deep breath and just let go.